Since I’ve been a little girl I can’t remember one day without fear. I’m scared of everything, any kinds of situations where I’m not in control, where I can’t stop what is happening. Especially doctors – I can’t be touched by people I don’t know, and […]
It’s interesting that the word „fuck“ is being used not only for sex, but also for violence. Yes, I got fucked at the start at my life and now I’m fucked, literally. And whenever I smell cigarette and alcohol breath – in the streets, at the […]
The body remembers. No matter how young the child they do not "forget it ever happened". What might be a "one off event" for you is likely to bring a lifetime of dysfunction for the child. Whether you believe in God or not, He sees and […]
For me no love is possible ever. I’m the loneliest person in the world.
I got raped by my mother’s bf for years and my whole family knew it. Today i can’t trust anyone and can’t let anyone near me. For the same reason I can’t see doctors – especially dentists and gynecologist are an absolute no go – so […]
Today I’m 42 years old and I still have nightmares from those nights when I was between 6 and 14 years old. I suffer from PTSD and half of my life is about avoiding or going through panic attacks. This is exactly what I wish for […]